Our little boy Caleb doesn't need to be told twice when Daddy tells him to go "put on your boots"! He doesn't know where he's going, doesn't know how long it'll take or how much it will cost; All he knows is Daddy asked him to go spend quality time with him and that's all it takes for him to obey. We have heard the same request from our heavenly Father concerning adoption. We are embarking on this adoption adventure with Him not knowing the where and how; All we know is God wants to spend quality time with us and teach us who He is on a deeper level.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Dying a little bit on the way / Mourir un peu sur cette route

It's been two years since we answered God's call for our family to adopt a son from Ethiopia. It is also our 10th month of waiting for a referral. Like I have mentioned before the estimated wait time for a referral is 10-16 months. When we compare our DTE to other families that have just received referrals we can expect another 5 months of wait time.
The hardest thing for me (Tina) so far with this adoption adventure is trusting God's timing in building our family. A while back I have experienced the surrender of my will and plans as far as how many children the Lord might have wanted to bless me with. Now I am longing for more children but the Lord has different plans for us right now. While we are waiting, this adoption feels like a dream. It's easy to lose focus when I haven't seen my son's face. I keep reminding myself that God's timing and calling are best. So in a nutshell I am learning to die to myself and my plans to let the Lord Jesus live in me. It hurts at times but it's a good kinda hurt! :)

Deja 2 ans depuis que nous avons repondu a l'appel de Dieu concernant l'adoption d'un fils en Ethiopie. C'est aussi notre 10eme mois d'attente. Comme je l'ai deja mentionne avant notre temps d'attente estime est de 10 a 16 mois. Quand nous comparons les dates de dossier d'autres familles qui viennent tout juste de recevoir leurs "match" nous pouvons estimer un autre 5 mois d'attente.
La chose la plus difficile pour moi (Tina) a date avec cet adoption c'est de faire totalement confiance a Dieu pour le futur de notre famille. Il y a quelques annees j'ai appris a faire confiance a Dieu et son controle souverain pour l'agrandissement eventuel de notre famille. Maintenant alors que j'ai vraiment le desir d'agrandir notre famille le Seigneur a d'autres plans pour nous. Durant cette longue attente, tout semble etre un reve. C'est facile de perdre de vu le but de Son plan quand je n'ai pas encore vu le visage de mon fils si loin. Je me rappelle sans cesse que Dieu a toujours de meilleurs plans et aussi un meilleur "timing" que le mien. Alors en grosso modo J'apprends a mourir a moi-meme et a mes plans et a laisser le Seigneur Jesus vivre en moi. C'est douloureux mais c'est une douleur qui me fait du bien. :)


  1. I know how it feels....
    Je lis un livre qui me fait bcp de bien récemment: Une berger médite sur le Psaumes 23. Quand nous sommes faible notre berger nous affermis.


  2. Tina, you are so right about all God has planned for you. Believe it or not, it is the growing He does inside of each of us, the changing, the stretching and refining that is as much a miracle as the growing of your family. Try not to look back at where you have been over the past two years, but forward to what He has planned for you all! . . . and smile at His timing, because as you know from many different stories, He has a way of just making it so exciting and perfect in every way. Blessings and prayers sent your way!